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and the world must keep on spinning, despite all these hindrances.

I need to be better than I am. I need to stop feeling so crazy all the time and figure out how to make things right. And I just can't.

I'm so scared and paranoid over all these minute things. Things that should be inconsequential- but that just arent. I don't know how to rectify the situation. I don't know how to reconcile what has happened with how I feel.

 

I hate being so lost. I hate being so empty.

 

So many times in my life I have wanted to simply disappear and never look back. Maybe that's what I should do. Maybe being the runner is best. I just want to know why my life is so ridiculously beyond repair.

it's no good when you are afraid to sleep and you run scenarios through your head over and over again.

why cant things just be normal.